You are confusing free will with a random will, a very common thing.
The question is , IS this a true good I am reaching out to, or is it false? and that is all.
You do not have the choice of making some random hateful thing the object of your will. But you do have the choice of choosing a lesser or greater good and of avoiding evil.
Do you realize that you are arguing for an uncaused choice as a free choice??