The University of North Carolina Wilmington (Marine Biology)
The University of North Carolina Wilmington (Master's)
By the end of my senior year in high school, I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I would be a scientist, the obvious choice, given my intellect and academic abilities. Besides, this is what everyone expected of me. My parents and teachers would be so proud. So I came to UNCW to pursue marine biology.
My academics and extra curriculars engulfed me in science and environmental activism. I dreamed of convincing seven billion people to change their ways to help save the planet. I did everything I could to succeed. I ran a student organization, worked a part-time job, and graduated summa cum laude.
For some reason, this wasn't good enough. I needed to do more. I needed to prove to my family and to my teachers that I was exceptional, that I would change the world. They were counting on me. So I stayed at UNCW for a masters in chemistry, knowing it would improve my chances of being accepted to the most prestigious oceanographic institutes. Earning a PhD was sure to impress. Perhaps that would be good enough. I'll earn a PhD then work on the forefront of technology and research. I'll earn every government grant to pursue the biggest scientific mysteries, and I'll be recognized by the world for my groundbreaking research. That will definitely impress my family and teachers. I'll make them proud for sure.
In the midst of planning the entirety of my life while working on my masters project, an idea crept into my train of thought. Small at first, yet very significant. What if I'm never good enough? Everyone will be so disappointed. I can't let that happen. Keep going. Work harder. Do more. Be perfect. I persevered in this mindset until my stomach was so acidic that I could no longer eat. I couldn't sleep. I cried, I thought about death, and I went to school everyday like I was supposed to. Until I realized I was absolutely miserable. I had been living my entire life trying to impress everyone else, and I had forgotten to enjoy my own life. I had forgotten what it felt like to enjoy learning. But I loved learning! Why was it no longer enjoyable? It's because I was learning for someone else, pursuing someone else's goal rather than my own. I had pigeon-holed myself into studying one subject, when I really wanted to learn everything; dance, nutrition, art, communication, wellness, psychology, literature, language. I wanted to learn all of these things but a lifetime of extrinsic pressure suppressed that desire.
Now that I've figured that out, I want to share this experience with other students. I want to challenge their pre-conceived biases on success and open their ideas to other possibilities. If they can find value in the seemingly invaluable, they will discover their own passion, and they will find their voice in the direction of their education. For students being bullied by extrinsic pressure, I will be the ear that helps them find their voice, giving them the intrinsic motivation to succeed. I will challenge them through self-reflection, encouraging independence and resourcefulness. With passion, self-awareness, and resourcefulness, they will discover their ability to achieve anything, with a little guidance, of course.
Math is my language. I understand the struggles some students have with math and I can "translate" the information to make it simple and understandable.
Biology and chemistry are my strongest suits. A thorough understanding of concepts and application, makes it easy for me to explain in simple terms. I take difficult concepts and translate them into real-life scenarios to help you remember the information for the long term.
I look forward to finding a tutoring strategy that works for your unique learning style. Let's do this! By the end of my senior year in high school, I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I would be a scientist, the obvious choice, given my intellect and academic abilities. Besides, this is what everyone expected of me. My parents and teachers would be so proud. So I came to UNCW to pursue marine biology.
My academics and extra curriculars